There are words I can never utter, there are things I can never do. It’s just a little too late, and sometimes a little too early too. 

So now I’m wondering, can it really be us two?

I wanna stay away from you just to see and feel you pull me back right beside you. I wanna pull my hands away and let them feel cold just to have you pulling them and warming them up again. I wanna be lost just to be found by you. I wanna go away just to see you make an effort to be with me.

Someday, I’m gonna meet someone who is gonna think I’m good enough for him or.. more than enough. I’m gonna meet someone who’s going to make me feel good about myself and make me see that I have a pretty nice life.

I’m gonna meet someone who’s going to love me and I will love back.

(via theletterafterj-deactivated2012)

I’m getting better.

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No one told me it’s going to be like this. No one told me that everything was just a game. No one told me that it was going to be easy. No one told me it’s going to be hard, either. No one told me… that that was nothing.

I feel stupid. I feel like a child finally discovering that Santa isn’t real and all those gifts are just from Mom and Dad. And now.. they won’t send me gifts because I know. And it sucks.

Sometimes, you get used to having something. You depend a little part of yourself to it. And once it’s gone, you feel a little bit empty. You wake up and you feel a little gap inside of you.. something hollow, something missing. 

Then they ask you, “Why are you so clingy?”. They ask you, “Why is this all happening so fast?”. They ask you, “This guy?”. And they don’t know.. you’ve been asking the same questions to yourself.

I so so sooo want to use the phrases “As expected..” “As usual..” “Knew it,” but I can’t. This one’s different. I wanted this but now I’m scared.. to know the taste of my own medicine.

Go talk to meeeeeeeeeee :( 

It’s always the perfect girl vs. the right girl.. It’s never the perfect girl vs. the tumblr-addict akward ugly girl *sighs*

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you’re too beautiful damn

Everything was beautiful. I just wish I was there to hold your hand and enjoy the moment. 

Captivating. Mesmerizing. How do you get this beautiful? ~

Nobody misses me.. and you guys know what, that sucks more than not having new friends.

Can someone send me some messages, please? I miss you, guys. And I really really want just messages to answer, people to talk to.. and everything. So, please?